The Fear of Faith

This particular dream was part of the process in understanding what it was that God was trying to teach me first.  It was divided into two parts:  The first part was dated March 11, 2012 – This is what I saw:

I saw a swimming pool full of crystal clear water, it seemed perfect because you could physically see the bottom of the pool.  Then; I saw my father standing next to the pool along with my son that at the time happens to be 4 years old.  All of a sudden my son throws himself into the pool.  You have to understand one of my biggest fear has been since I was young “the water”; since I do not know how to swim. When; that incident happen my original reaction was asking my father to jump and get him out.  But to my surprise my father refused; and he stated that it was my responsibility to do it.  This was something he could not do for me; I needed to do it!  With my fear and all my plan was to jump exactly where I could see him and pull him out and grab myself up.  It was easy since I could see everything.  So; I did as I had plan I jumped and I pulled him out and wrapped in a white towel.

The second part of the dream was March 12, 2012 – This Is what I saw:

I saw a swimming pool full of dirty water, it was pitch black and you could not see a thing. Then I saw my father standing next to the pool along with my son.  Same picture image of the dream I had the day before but this time the water is the opposite of the other.  Same incident happens.  But my fear overcame me I questioned how would I be able to do this because I can not see anything.  My whole being was invaded because of not just the fear of “the water” but uncertainty of the results since I could not see into the water.  But without further do I jumped since the longer I meditated and doubted myself would give my son less time to survive under the water.  Jumped in the dark and struggled to find him; when I did I had to fight harder but I manage to pull him out and wrapped him in a white towel.  I remember when I woke up that day my arms were so sore from my struggle.

Meaning:

When I finished with these dreams came a strong teaching of Faith……..

Sometimes we find ourselves in similar situations where they might be easier to visualize because of the evidence that surrounds it.  But; this makes it more an act of us in which yes God has prepared it so that when you face it looks easier.  This is still the act of us being in control.   On the other hand; you will also find yourself in situations of darkness and fear that you would have to face. The struggle will become more real since you are not just fighting along with your insecurities and your fears.  Yet also not having the control.   The result will be the act of Faith; our hand has nothing to do with this.  The struggle will be to actually believe and act on it.  Facing all your fears leaving you vulnerable is the result of God showing you the strength that “Faith” gives us to overcome any situation as hard as it is not being able to see what is in front of you.   Having “Faith” gives results to your Vision.  The reference to my father and son as it is obvious is the security of what surrounds you when you decide to let go and let God.

Today I was reminded of this dream….so I wanted to share. These past few days of holidays have brought changes to our lives that you would think would darken our stay.  Some of us are missing our loved ones; some of us may be sick; and some of us have gone through so many tribulations and trials these past years that you are almost to the point of giving up.    But you have to remember the one thing that always prevails over our feelings of fear, insecurities, sadness, failure and weakness is the power of “Faith”.  “Faith” is the substance that we can not see but holds everything.  I am here embracing this “Faith” that will always give me the strength and love to continue to push through with my process. Phil. 4:13, Hebrews 11:1